Stop and Count to 10!

I tend to get a little grumpy a few days after my treatments.  In fact, several of my good friends warn the family that stays with me, to just banish me to my room once they sense it coming on.  I know this is not a good thing but I tend to use the excuse, "I have cancer and I feel like crap!" 

Last night I got a little grumpy and my sweet hubby pointed it out to me.  See, I am getting a little inpatient with things not being finished at the house,  (I know we just moved in but can't I snap my fingers and make it all happen?)  plus I am still recovering from this last treatment and allergies on top of that!  BLAH!  I had the right to be grumpy!!!

Well at least that's how I feel in the moment, but afterwards I feel horrible for snapping and yelling at everyone around me.  As I was reading my devotional this morning, I was reminded of the many times, I have told one of my kids to "Stop and count to 10," before reacting to things that might frustrate you.  It's great advice, if only I could remember to use it...  I am now going to try and put a little tweak on it.  "STOP AND PRAY!"  before reacting in frustration. 

1 Corinthians 19 - 20
Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price.  So glorify God in your body.

I have always thought about this verse when I am talking about doing something to my physical body.  Today, I thought about it in a new way.  We are supposed to glorify God in our earthly body.  Yelling, screaming, getting grumpy and treating the ones I love badly is not glorifying to God.  Therefore I should "Stop and pray" before I react out of grumpiness, allowing the Holy Spirit to do His work within me. 

I plan to "Stop and Pray" from now on when I sense the edge of grumpiness coming on.  No more making excuses but instead, I plan to glorify God even in my frustrating moments.  Yes, I will fail but hopefully with enough practice, joy will overtake the grumpiness even when it's hard.

I am starting to gain a little energy back from this last treatment.  It was really hard on me, I was completely wiped out for a couple days.  I pretty much stayed in bed for 24 hours straight.  Everything is blooming up here, which is beautiful but makes my allergies HORRIBLE!  So on top of recovering from my treatment, I can't breathe and I am going through a box of tissues a day.  Overall though, I feel pretty good.  I only have 1 more left!!!  This thought definitely helps make it a little easier.

Still having nerve issues in my feet.  Praying it doesn't get worse.
Continue to gain energy.
Patience in finishing putting the house together. 


  1. Michelle, one of the concrete things that you can do to reduce the neuropathy (numbness, tingling, & pain) in your hands & feet is to take acetyl L-Carnitine, at least 1000 mg per day. It's been studied and is the only supplement that has been proven to help - plus, few to no side effects! Unfortunately neuropathy is due to the paclitaxel and carboplatin, and usually gets worse up until about a month after the final round of those, then starts to get better. It is a long road but it *does* get better!

    Also if your fingernails and/or toenails are damaged - as mine were - taking biotin can help strengthen them, as well as using nail hardeners (the kind that are sold like nail polish). Keeping them trimmed really short until they grow out also helps prevent bad breaks, which are both painful and a real infection risk.

    Here's hoping that you get through your final treatment next week with flying colors! Then you can begin to heal from the chemo.


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