Feeling Normal

This last weekend, Josh and I went to his Christmas party at work on Saturday night.  We had a lot of fun and got to visit with lots of people I haven't seen in a while.  Not everyone in his office knew of my diagnosis which was kind of nice because the night did not get consumed with talk of cancer.  But on the other hand, it was really nice to be able to talk about it with the few that did know.  Josh is extremely blessed to work with such an incredible company.  I am also extremely thankful for Josh's boss and his wife.  They are both incredibly caring people and have a faith that is strong and an example to both of us.

On Sunday, we went to a tree lot and cut down our Christmas tree.  We all had a blast and again it was nice to feel normal.  They had a small train garden and Ady was completely awestruck.
The boys also loved it and had a great time showing it to their little sister.
We then hit the fields to pick the best Christmas tree there but not before the picture.

Of course, they are all thinking, "Aw mom, quit taking pictures!"
Anyways we all had a blast picking out the tree, but trying to get 7 very opionated people to agree on a tree is not fun.  Finally I had had enough walking and stopped at 2 trees.  I named 1 A and 1 B.  Of course we were pretty much split down the middle on the decision and I kept saying, "Choose 1, A or B?"  That is when Ady chimed in with her opinion very loudly saying, "B! B! B!"  So yes we let Ady choose the tree.  B it was. 

  After loading the tree on the car, "I started wondering if Kade was right(don't tell him I said that) and the tree was going to be too big?"  Of course, when we got home, we had to got probably 1 foot and 1/2 off the tree to get it to stand up and 1 side of the tree can't even let down because the couch is in the way but it is perfect.  It's a little quirky kind of like us but it is big and bold reminding me of the love that our family(all of it) shares.
The weekend was AMAZING and yes I did overdo it and am paying for it a little now but those of you that know me, know that I can't sit still for too long or I go crazy.  I definitely took it easy yesterday and am trying to do so today. 

My appointment with the doctor and the chemo specialist is Tuesday the 13th at 6:00 in the evening.  We will know what the next steps are after that.  We have a lot of questions and a lot of unknowns.  I think living in the world of the unknown is hard.  I want to continue to move forward with life yet I can't plan too far ahead because I know my life and plans will be scheduled around the treamtments that are to come.  In some ways, I think this is good, because it is making me slow down and live in the moment. 

Lately I have found comfort and strength in:
Colossians 2:6-7 "Therefore, as you received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in him, rooted and built in him and established in the faith, just as you were taught, abounding in thanksgiving."
We are to be rooted like a tree with our roots being in His word.
Psalm 1:2-3
but his delight is in the law[a] of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.
He is like a tree
planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither.
In all that he does, he prospers.

Then we will be "built in Him and established in the faith."  The word established has a strong meaning- it is to be built firmly or permanently in something.  My faith is a firm and permanent presence in my life.

We are taught to live like this through His word, by brothers and sisters in Christ around us, by leaders and teachers in the faith, by mentors...

"Abounding" (to be rich or well supplied) in thanksgiving.  As I think of the word abounding, Ady is sitting here grabbing my hands so we can dance and sing and giggle to her songs on TV, it is reminding me of the overflowing and well supplied joy and wonder of a child.  I want my thanksgiving to be abounding like that.

I am thankful for the laughter and memories that were made this weekend.
I am thankful for the relationships that grew and were strengthed this weekend.


  1. 1. I love Ady's plaid shirt, jeans and boots. It's the perfect outfit to wear to a tree farm.

    2. Two great pics of all your kids together. I love that Kade is wearing shorts.

    3. You are great.


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